Some Random Thought
Once again, I'll have to say goodbye to Malaysia real soon. Will be leaving for London in another 8 days. This time, I think I'll gleefully leave Malaysia without having any sorrowful thoughts.
A year ago, I vividly remember how excited, yet afraid I was to leave home. Nasty thoughts haunted me. I didn't want to enter a completely new and alien country. I wasn't sure if I was independent enough. I was afraid I could not pass this hurdle. I was really worried that I'll be all alone. I was afraid that I would give up and lose my scholarship.
How wrong I was.
This time, I really miss the fun I had in London. I miss my newly-made friends. I miss the ones from my department, MSoc, Lion Dance, ULUBUDA, Beit Hall and other universities. I've not been catching up with them (only through facebook) ever since I was back. Wanted to meet a lot of them but to no avail.
On another note, I think I've changed a lot characteristically. That was the comment I had from everyone. Whether it's good or bad, it has yet to be discovered. I see it as a 50-50 thing. Or perhaps, 70-30. Thinking about my future, what I really want in life and the problems I have to face if I were to do this....or that; seem to be my current hobby. I neither condone this hobby nor enjoy thinking about it. It does affect me but I think it is not to be neglected. It's something I really have to face.
Sigh! I suppose it's one of those stages in life......
