I'm actually hoping that time would pass faster so that I can finally watch the finals of AI and then result and get over with it once and for all (instead of getting it stuck at my head; pondering about who will clinch the title). However, the other part of me always hope that there is really more time to study! :( What if I don't pass 2nd year? Howw?? Exam starts in exactly a WEEK! :(

Life sucks for now. My daily routine is really screwed up and unhealthy. Weird sleeping hours and awful eating habits coupled with stress can really make one go crazy. Especially at this point of time. How not to go insane with an exam time-table like this:

27/5: Computer Architecture
29/5: Control Engineering
2/6: Digital Electronics 2
4/6: Maths 3
5/6: Maths 4
9/6: Communications 2
11/6: Signals and Systems
13/6: Software Engineering
16/6: Fields and Devices
17/6: Power
19/6: Analogue Electronics 2

If only I did not do things this last minute and had a better time management...

Why do I always ALWAYS do this! Some things just don't change!!!! =(

Final exam

Is in approximately a months' time and I doubt I'm even half way through revising the entire 11 subjects. Digital electronics: super confusing + time-consuming, Analogue: er.. don't even ask, Comms 2: just printed and compiled my notes few days ago?, Fields/Devices/Power: hasn't started, Control: really need a book to understand the super concise notes..

Oh gosh, I don't think I would want to go on elaborating and ranting on the rest of the papers. This is getting really stressful.. Helppp~! =(

Help~!!

I really foresee lots and lots of stressful/sleepless nights coming up for at least, the next 2 to 3 months! =( After 1st year, I clearly remembered that I told myself to not let this happen again but it looks like I've failed in that. I'm clearly a very very last minute worker/mugger. Will be leaving Blogger for a period of time (at least until end of June, unless I'm super bored and have lots of stories to tell).

11 papers in approx. 2 months time!! =( I've never sat for so many papers in my whole entire life; well maybe except for SPM but still! I'd rather take 12 to 15 SPM subjects....

Till then, ciao!

=(

Exam

May not be blogging for the whole of this month. Exam starts tomorrow and ends in 17 days time. Hopefully(fingers crossed), I'll be able to scrape through it this time; considering the fact that I'm not really prepared for it and have not been revising my work constantly. I've NEVER been this unprepared for exams before, seriously never. Unless, you take primary school into account. Anyway, GOOD LUCK to everyone having exams around this time (Chem Eng, EE 1st/2nd years, etc and everyone else!)

1 Down, 8 to Go

Finally, no more management exam in 4 years! wheeeee! I no longer need to mug all the contributions made by F.W.Taylor, J.M.Burns, Charles Handy, Pettinger, Mayo and the list just goes on and on. Honestly, I'm really sick of the word organization, legitimacy and authority. Been seeing and reading too much of it.

Management paper was not as bad as I thought it would be (questions were not that tough) because I could recall the things I've memorized BUT I just felt I did not put in enough examples, did not answer the question at several points and crapped a lot of unnecessary stuffs just to make the essays seem lengthy. Honestly, if they were going to mark me based on my points, it should be fine but if they're expecting concrete arguments, I think I'll do rather badly :( But I'm not complaining this time and the point I'm trying to make here is: I'm not exactly satisfied with the paper but I'm glad that it's all over.

As for now, have to start preparing for the remaining papers. My exam timetable is as follows:

• 21/5: Digital Electronics
• 22/5: Fields and Devices
• 25/5: Communications
• 30/5: Maths 1
• 31/5: Maths 2
• 1/6: Engineering Materials
• 4/6: Analogue Electronics
• 6/6: Analysis of Circuits

After that, it'll be all over! Can't wait to travel =) And then, go home!! Been missing a lot of things: family, friends, food, everything!

Wish me luck for my exams! Really need it badly.

Better Now: Thank You! =)

I feel a lot better and relaxed now (I'm being myself again). Not that I'm not stressed anymore, but I am no longer bothered by other things. Finally, it's time for me to concentrate and study! Management exam in a weeks time! =(

Anyway, I really have to thank a lot of people for that. It's amazing how you all manage to put up with me. A big THANK YOU to :-

• The ones who commented on my blog: Audrey, Megan, SP, CC, CM, Vi Vian, Irene, Ken, Aimi, Jing Koon
• Kim Hong: Thanks for your advise!
• Janet: You emailed and SMS-ed me from Australia! aww, that was really sweet of you!
• Joanne: I think you're the worst victim :S I hurled all my nasty thoughts to you. Hehe thanks for being a good listener and sorry yea!
• Syn-Yi: Thanks for the song and message you sent: "Smile ya & stay happy.Stress only makes u go bald so if u don't wanna waste money go Yun Nam then listen to this.It helps!!" *faint*
• Tsan

(Gosh, this is tiring! Did I miss anyone out?)

And, this is for Cindy. Thank you for suggesting Janet to text me. I'm very (well not very, but quite) sure that you told KH to do that also. You trained him too well. I asked him and he kept denying that you were the one who suggested him to do that. Both your SMS-es were so similar! Also, thank you for your lovely card and jellies :P

So, here goes my version of what happened on Friday (the 13th); regarding the jellies. Considering the fact that I was so tired on that day, I decided to sleep at 9pm. I was then rudely awoken at around 11pm because of something (I really can't remember what that was). Decided to check my handphone and to my surprise, there were 16 miss calls (8 from YM and 8 from Cindy. Don't worry! Your calls did not wake me up. Honestly, I didn't hear a single thing) :S Anyone on the right mind would definitely be worried and suspect that something might be going on. Found out it was actually nothing and I was told to wait for YM's phone call. Hence, I decided to take a nap while waiting for her call.

After a while, someone knocked on the door and Jonathan(my roommate), as usual, attended the guest. Usually it is his friend but this time, it's Cindy! She came in to pass the card and jellies she made for me. Honestly, I was extremely blur that time. Questions like "Oh what day is it today? Did I forget something? Did I not do something" flooded my mind. And, that was seriously very SWEET of you to do that, Cindy! Thanks! =)

Longan, Banana (this sounds weird), Gula Melaka and Toffee Jelly

I love the card!

Anyway, thought that the banana jelly would taste really BAD! Hehe. But, it turns out not too bad =) My favourite is still the longan although I like banana, on its own :P

Emotionally Down

I'm really immensely stressed and depressed now. There are a few things which leads to it:

1. the deterioration of my studies (main reason);
2. the feeling of guilt I have towards my dear friend who has just left to Birmingham;
3. wee bit of peer pressure;
4. lack of sleep;
5. surviving on only 1 meal a day;
6. some other reasons I would not want to mention because it may lead to unnecessary emotional posts

I'm no longer the boisterous, gleeful, confident, positive and joyous person people use to know. I am extremely pessimistic, gloomy, sensitive and incompetent at present. My goal in university and life seemed to be very vague in mind.

But, why? Why would all of these things happen simultaneously; at the time when I really needed extra confidence and motivation to do my work? The expectation of me to do well is just SO great! (from both my parents and sponsor) Seriously. I know the phrase "Just Do Your Best" sounds convincing. People keep telling me that "You'll do great, don't worry!"

I mean, it's really very sweet of them to have the confidence in me; but how would anyone know how well I will do? Honestly, no one knows how terrible my state is at present. I know myself best. And, I'm definitely sure that I'm NOT fine.

I really need to calm down. Was supposed to at least finish studying Digital Electronics by now, but I'm still staring stagnantly at the same page for hours. I seriously don't know what I shall do. I'm sad and lost.

An Excellent Break

To those who reads my blog regularly, sorry for not blogging for quite some time: I have been rather stressed up due to the amount of work (studies) I have to do over Easter vacation. I'm currently way behind my schedule =(

Gopi visited me from Malaysia and I have to admit that I'm a VERY terrible host. He had to walk to Harrods by himself on one fine day because I was too knackered to go with him. That seriously reflects on how obnoxious I am as a person/friend. It would have been better if he visited London somewhere in June; after my exams. Anyway, lets just skip that matter before I start chiding myself for being such a bad host.

On a bright and fine Easter Sunday, Cindy suggested that we should meet up for lunch. Henceforth, the 4 of us (me, Cindy, Cheng Chun and Gopi) met up for 'dim sum'. We then headed off to Green Park and Buckingham Palace since Gopi and Cindy have not been there before. Weather was seriously perfect and favourable. What an excellent break from work! (not that I've been working that hard, but still!)

Brilliant park and weather

And, oh! we went on a "double date" (I know Gopi's gonna kill me for this)

Cindy and I

Gopi and his long lost lover =P

Some of the retarded/nice photos we took:

Fine. Our relationship is complicated.

Gopi thinks this picture is cool! =)

Last Day of Spring Term

Looking back at what I did for this term, hmmm, I would say it's much better than the Autumn Term which ended last December. I'm less playful this term I think (don't laugh when I say this) :S

I had the toughest last week of term and I thank the people who were there to support and motivate me along the way! (you know who you are) Seriously, thanks! The continuous support I had certainly helped me during the week. Having 2 tests (Online test, Lab test) and 2 deadlines (Final programming, Radio design project) in a week is certainly not easy. Hopefully, I've learnt my lesson of not doing things at the eleventh hour from this.

Besides that, life is still alright. Currently, I'm having a 4-weeks hiatus i.e. "holiday". And oh, I know this is REALLY random but I just have to say it: Heng Kai suddenly LOVES eating bananas! (don't ask me why) I hope NONE of you will think I'm crazy or drunk after reading this post. I'm still sober okayy?? =)

Bananas rock! =)

Imperial is insane! help!!

Guess what?! It's already 4.40 am (UK time) and I'm not asleep yet. Before you people jump to conclusions of your own such as "Wah, study until so late. Crazy!" , allow me to clarify this: I've jammed (played o2jam) for 4 hours, and NOT study! lol. How pleasant life is, for once and for all :) I completely forgotten about all the things that I have to do. (which is something really distressing)

Now that I think of what I did, I feel rather flustered. I'm perfectly aware that my course is rather demanding, yet I'm still being ignorant about it.

Below are the list of things that I have to do: (before I can fly back to Malaysia peacefully)
week 8 - Slide Show presentation, 1200 words technical report deadline;
week 9 - Christmas Test, Driving Test
week 10 - (not sure what they're gonna do in this week either)
week 11 - Driving Test, Design Project deadline

The bolded ones are the ones which will be counted towards our degree. :(
Thankfully, the Christmas Test is not accessed. But still, I wouldn't want to completely screw it and make my personal tutor think that I've not been doing anything at all :S He has high hopes for me; perhaps it's due to the fact that I did quite well for my "Maths Diagnostic Test" in the 2nd week of this term.

And oh! For your info, 'Driving Test' is a programming test : We will be given a question paper WITHOUT pseudocodes; only words in English, and we're supposed to write out the codes in a program called Delphi. And, trust me. It's not that easy!

Arghhhh! I seriously don't know. I'm just worried of all these "petty" little things, as some would say. As far as I'm concerned for NOW, I'm really looking forward to returning back home to see my dear family, friends and all the people I miss.

Oopss. I think I shall stop here. It's already 4.53 am and I have a lion dance practise in the morning (10 am). Adios people! And, do wish me luck for the final 4 weeks :)