I'm actually hoping that time would pass faster so that I can finally watch the finals of AI and then result and get over with it once and for all (instead of getting it stuck at my head; pondering about who will clinch the title). However, the other part of me always hope that there is really more time to study! :( What if I don't pass 2nd year? Howw?? Exam starts in exactly a WEEK! :(

Life sucks for now. My daily routine is really screwed up and unhealthy. Weird sleeping hours and awful eating habits coupled with stress can really make one go crazy. Especially at this point of time. How not to go insane with an exam time-table like this:

27/5: Computer Architecture
29/5: Control Engineering
2/6: Digital Electronics 2
4/6: Maths 3
5/6: Maths 4
9/6: Communications 2
11/6: Signals and Systems
13/6: Software Engineering
16/6: Fields and Devices
17/6: Power
19/6: Analogue Electronics 2

If only I did not do things this last minute and had a better time management...

Why do I always ALWAYS do this! Some things just don't change!!!! =(

Final exam

Is in approximately a months' time and I doubt I'm even half way through revising the entire 11 subjects. Digital electronics: super confusing + time-consuming, Analogue: er.. don't even ask, Comms 2: just printed and compiled my notes few days ago?, Fields/Devices/Power: hasn't started, Control: really need a book to understand the super concise notes..

Oh gosh, I don't think I would want to go on elaborating and ranting on the rest of the papers. This is getting really stressful.. Helppp~! =(

Help~!!

I really foresee lots and lots of stressful/sleepless nights coming up for at least, the next 2 to 3 months! =( After 1st year, I clearly remembered that I told myself to not let this happen again but it looks like I've failed in that. I'm clearly a very very last minute worker/mugger. Will be leaving Blogger for a period of time (at least until end of June, unless I'm super bored and have lots of stories to tell).

11 papers in approx. 2 months time!! =( I've never sat for so many papers in my whole entire life; well maybe except for SPM but still! I'd rather take 12 to 15 SPM subjects....

Till then, ciao!

=(

Better Now: Thank You! =)

I feel a lot better and relaxed now (I'm being myself again). Not that I'm not stressed anymore, but I am no longer bothered by other things. Finally, it's time for me to concentrate and study! Management exam in a weeks time! =(

Anyway, I really have to thank a lot of people for that. It's amazing how you all manage to put up with me. A big THANK YOU to :-

• The ones who commented on my blog: Audrey, Megan, SP, CC, CM, Vi Vian, Irene, Ken, Aimi, Jing Koon
• Kim Hong: Thanks for your advise!
• Janet: You emailed and SMS-ed me from Australia! aww, that was really sweet of you!
• Joanne: I think you're the worst victim :S I hurled all my nasty thoughts to you. Hehe thanks for being a good listener and sorry yea!
• Syn-Yi: Thanks for the song and message you sent: "Smile ya & stay happy.Stress only makes u go bald so if u don't wanna waste money go Yun Nam then listen to this.It helps!!" *faint*
• Tsan

(Gosh, this is tiring! Did I miss anyone out?)

And, this is for Cindy. Thank you for suggesting Janet to text me. I'm very (well not very, but quite) sure that you told KH to do that also. You trained him too well. I asked him and he kept denying that you were the one who suggested him to do that. Both your SMS-es were so similar! Also, thank you for your lovely card and jellies :P

So, here goes my version of what happened on Friday (the 13th); regarding the jellies. Considering the fact that I was so tired on that day, I decided to sleep at 9pm. I was then rudely awoken at around 11pm because of something (I really can't remember what that was). Decided to check my handphone and to my surprise, there were 16 miss calls (8 from YM and 8 from Cindy. Don't worry! Your calls did not wake me up. Honestly, I didn't hear a single thing) :S Anyone on the right mind would definitely be worried and suspect that something might be going on. Found out it was actually nothing and I was told to wait for YM's phone call. Hence, I decided to take a nap while waiting for her call.

After a while, someone knocked on the door and Jonathan(my roommate), as usual, attended the guest. Usually it is his friend but this time, it's Cindy! She came in to pass the card and jellies she made for me. Honestly, I was extremely blur that time. Questions like "Oh what day is it today? Did I forget something? Did I not do something" flooded my mind. And, that was seriously very SWEET of you to do that, Cindy! Thanks! =)

Longan, Banana (this sounds weird), Gula Melaka and Toffee Jelly

I love the card!

Anyway, thought that the banana jelly would taste really BAD! Hehe. But, it turns out not too bad =) My favourite is still the longan although I like banana, on its own :P

Emotionally Down

I'm really immensely stressed and depressed now. There are a few things which leads to it:

1. the deterioration of my studies (main reason);
2. the feeling of guilt I have towards my dear friend who has just left to Birmingham;
3. wee bit of peer pressure;
4. lack of sleep;
5. surviving on only 1 meal a day;
6. some other reasons I would not want to mention because it may lead to unnecessary emotional posts

I'm no longer the boisterous, gleeful, confident, positive and joyous person people use to know. I am extremely pessimistic, gloomy, sensitive and incompetent at present. My goal in university and life seemed to be very vague in mind.

But, why? Why would all of these things happen simultaneously; at the time when I really needed extra confidence and motivation to do my work? The expectation of me to do well is just SO great! (from both my parents and sponsor) Seriously. I know the phrase "Just Do Your Best" sounds convincing. People keep telling me that "You'll do great, don't worry!"

I mean, it's really very sweet of them to have the confidence in me; but how would anyone know how well I will do? Honestly, no one knows how terrible my state is at present. I know myself best. And, I'm definitely sure that I'm NOT fine.

I really need to calm down. Was supposed to at least finish studying Digital Electronics by now, but I'm still staring stagnantly at the same page for hours. I seriously don't know what I shall do. I'm sad and lost.

Scary

About one in ten of the essays turned in last term have been plagiarised: large sections have been copied from the internet (we found the originials).

We realize that some of you may not realize that this is actually CHEATING and against the rules of Imperial College (plagiarisim is something that can result in your being thrown out). You may have missed the lecture/study group where I explicitly explained that you must be moving back and forth between sources, must never copy more than half a sentence, must paraphrase or use quotation marks, etc.

For those of you who have made an honest mistake, we are offering you a one-time opportunity to come forward and say that you accidentally plagiarised some sections of your essay, and to rewrite it.

YOU HAVE PLAGIARISED IF:
1. You picked up whole paragraphs OR WHOLE SENTENCES from other sources without putting them in quotes. Changing the occasional word DOES NOT make any difference: it is still plagiarism.
2. Plagiarism is also taking all of your information from a single unreferenced source EVEN IF YOU COMPLETELY REWROTE THE MATERIAL.

If you believe that you may have plagiarised (perhaps because you didn't know any better) you must contact me by Monday 15 January at 5pm. You will be given until Friday 19 January at 5pm to rewrite the essay.

If you take up this offer:
a) You will still get 0 for the assignment once you have rewritten it (though you will get feedback on your writing).
b) You will NOT get any further penalty.
c) Nothing on your permanent record.
d) We will consider that you made an honest mistake and were willing to take responsibility for it and will not think less of you.

If you are caught cheating and have not come forward by the deadline (we have found at least 15 papers so far) then:
a) You will get 0 for this assignment.
b) You will also get a major penalty for your NEXT assignment.
c) Your plagiarism (and dishonesty) will be noted on your permanent record.

Note that this offer will not be made for future assignments: it is only because it is your first written assignment for the department that we are willing to give you the benefit of the doubt. Any plagiarism in future will be considered DELIBERATELY DISHONEST because, thanks to this e-mail, you all now know what plagiarism is.

(e-mail received from my lecturer this evening)



This is seriously terrifying. Why do they have to make it sound like it's a crime and get everyone's adrenalin going? I know it's Imperial but why can't they express it in a more pleasant and acceptable manner? Plagiarism is a serious thing over here, but don't you think it's wee bit hyperbolic in this case? Awww...

I really hate e-mails like this and now, I'm really worried :(

What?! A Bomb in Imperial??

I seriously hate to be in this position. Yes, I did not sleep the whole night AGAIN. argh! I slept TOO much on Saturday night and couldn't sleep at all on Sunday. This is terrible.

Anyway, I got up at 7am(obviously! I didn't sleep). Did the usual stuff that I had to do, and blogged. Then, I received a call from Megan: lectures might be cancelled! For one second, I almost shrieked with joy. That was before I found out what happened. Apparently, Imperial received an unusual heavy package from elsewhere. And, there were no sign of identification of sender. They suspected it was a bomb and everything went haywire. I wasn't at college that time, so I missed the "best part", according to some of them. Guess what I was doing? I was busy packing breakfast since I knew lectures will be delayed, not cancelled. My intuition tells me that Imperial will NEVER cancel their lectures :(

I packed bread only. I know it's something simple and nothing to shout about but still, it's unusual for ME to pack breakfast! haha.

Imperial is insane! help!!

Guess what?! It's already 4.40 am (UK time) and I'm not asleep yet. Before you people jump to conclusions of your own such as "Wah, study until so late. Crazy!" , allow me to clarify this: I've jammed (played o2jam) for 4 hours, and NOT study! lol. How pleasant life is, for once and for all :) I completely forgotten about all the things that I have to do. (which is something really distressing)

Now that I think of what I did, I feel rather flustered. I'm perfectly aware that my course is rather demanding, yet I'm still being ignorant about it.

Below are the list of things that I have to do: (before I can fly back to Malaysia peacefully)
week 8 - Slide Show presentation, 1200 words technical report deadline;
week 9 - Christmas Test, Driving Test
week 10 - (not sure what they're gonna do in this week either)
week 11 - Driving Test, Design Project deadline

The bolded ones are the ones which will be counted towards our degree. :(
Thankfully, the Christmas Test is not accessed. But still, I wouldn't want to completely screw it and make my personal tutor think that I've not been doing anything at all :S He has high hopes for me; perhaps it's due to the fact that I did quite well for my "Maths Diagnostic Test" in the 2nd week of this term.

And oh! For your info, 'Driving Test' is a programming test : We will be given a question paper WITHOUT pseudocodes; only words in English, and we're supposed to write out the codes in a program called Delphi. And, trust me. It's not that easy!

Arghhhh! I seriously don't know. I'm just worried of all these "petty" little things, as some would say. As far as I'm concerned for NOW, I'm really looking forward to returning back home to see my dear family, friends and all the people I miss.

Oopss. I think I shall stop here. It's already 4.53 am and I have a lion dance practise in the morning (10 am). Adios people! And, do wish me luck for the final 4 weeks :)

Reports, Projects, Presentations and Lab sessions

Are the things I dislike most in my course. I thought, initially, that I could depend on them to help me to gain some 'easy' marks. I'm so wrong! They're indeed more difficult to score, I think. It's rather demanding. Not to forget, they're ANNOYING because they have deadlines!! awww, the deadline of my presentation and 1200 words report is next week! And, I've not started anything yet. Sigh. There goes my free 'Saturday and Sunday'. I shall not complain and start working on it. Ranting about it in my blog wouldn't make a difference.

Lectures are alright though. Some were great, some boring (as usual), some interesting and funny! (but we don't learn much out of that lecture, unfortunately). I thought this clip is rather 'cute' and interesting in a way. Jeremy Pitt trying to juggle!!



It was taken by some student during Software Engineering (Jeremy Pitt's) class. This is what happens when we're in a busy course; i.e. lectures from 9am to 6pm on certain days. Ah! That's Imperial isn't it?

gay stalker!!!!

I seriously hate blogging. My friends who know me well enough should apprehend it. Anyhow, I think I should start blogging from today onwards to notify everyone (my friends, particularly) about my life/experiences in Imperial College. Let's skip the introduction and get down to the nitty-gritty.

As the title explains, it was about a horrifying incident which happened yesterday night in my hall (of residence).

This guy, a queer stalker to be precise, asked if he could use the toilet in my room. My room's at the 1st floor and we were at the Ground floor, so, I suggested him to use the toilet in the common room. I showed him the way there, and he abruptly told me he need not use the toilet anymore. At that time, honestly, I did not suspect anything. But, I already had the impression that this guy is peculiar. However, I pushed that thought aside, considering that I can be supersensitive at times. Then, here comes the 'interesting' part. My conversation with him was as follows.

Him: Hey! I heard that there are vacant rooms in this hall. Where do I get a form, to apply to stay here? (for your info, some of my hallmates were there at that time)
Me: er, I'm not quite sure about this. Personally, I think the rooms are all taken up. I think you should talk to the warden about this.
Him: Nah, I'm alright. I'm currently paying about £500 a week and the place isn't that good, after all. I want to have a look at the rooms here and see if it's alright or not. Can you show me your room for a minute?
Me: I'm sorry but I don't see a reason why you're allowed to see my room. Moreover, I have a roommate and he is not happy with me bringing people into our room. (I used that as an excuse!)

He tried persuading me, but I was annoyed. Finally, he gave up.

Him: Maybe you should just give me your hp number, instead? I might contact you if I want the tel number of the warden here or something.

And, I was stupid enough to give him my number!! :S I still didn't suspect anything that time, seriously. I was just annoyed with the way he begged me to allow him to see my room. After saving my number, he left and I went back to my room.

He sms-ed me right after that, and told me to call him back. Why should I? lol. My phone was out of credit! and NO way I'm gonna call him! I didn't reply his message either. So, he called.

*I guess I shouldnt reveal the details of the conversation here. It's rather unpleasant to hear. 18SX hahahaha. If you're still curious, you might consider sending £10 to my mailing address and I'll tell you more about it! hahahahahah*

How nice will it be if I receive such comments from a girl. I would really be flattered! but too bad, that's not the case. haha. sad case :( anyway, I've told him off and ignored him completely. I should be fine.

This serves as a reminder to everyone. Try not to be out alone, if you can, and always get some friends to go out with you! :) London is not THAT safe after all lol. there are stalkers around! So, BEWARE! and bring pepper-spray wherever you go! (that's what Kim Hong suggested) lol